Not Doing What I Do 

I’m a man of many hobbies. It has been said that I collect hobbies, the truth be told, that’s not far from true. Despite my physical limitations, many of my hobbies are hands-on, creative things; I’ve always loved to make or remake or restore things. But the last two years or so I’ve not been doing “what I do” nearly as much as I’d like to. In fact, adding writing (poetry/creative writing) to this blog was a way to give me a creative outlet I can go to when I can’t do what I am really wanting to work on.

These past couple of years have been a struggle for me health wise. I’ve had some pretty low lows and then started on an upswing after I found out about having diabetes. For a while I began to feel almost like me again. But it seems the struggle goes on – again.

I should say here this isn’t a “pity post” or meant to be a complaintfest (I think I just created a new word there!). I just need to express myself I guess. If you look, and you don’t need to feel compelled to, I am actually posting this in a brand new, just created category: Rambling. And I’m probably living up to that name here – and certainly will in the future I’m sure.

I’ve mentioned in the past in one or more posts that writing has always been a passion of mine, so I really am not complaining aabout doing it instead of another project. I’m opining more, really, about my frustration with my health swings. I told my son I feel like I’m caught up in some terrible whirlpool that I can’t free myself from: when I’m able and feel like accomplishing something I’m so far behind on normal chores/duties that I can’t do the fun, and potentially profitable (both monetarily and psychologically, things I’d really like to be doing. I don’t think I’ve had a string of more than three straight good days since winter began.

Now I’m dealing with this “other thing” that I’m not even sure what it is. I have a suspicion that my diet, somewhat poor of late, is playing a role in it; I suppose it’s back to the finger pricks and testing again to see what I can see there. But I have doubts that my recent decline in balance and mobility are associated with they, though I readily admit I could be wrong.

The old saying “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” may hold true here; I hope it’s the latter though of the options. I know God allows everything that happens for a reason. And I know whatever the reason it is ultimately for our (my) good. I pray the good arrives soon though.

Okay, rambling over – for now at least.

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4 comments

  1. I prayed today for a sign to help me deal with a ‘situation’ that has me feeling upset and sad and the thought to write about it came to me. Now I see this, out of the ordinary for your blog really, being a new category and all. Funny thing is, I am avoiding writing right now, distracting myself by enjoying other’s posts, though led by an angel back to those thoughts. I think God is working through you, so thank you both 🙂

    Now to speak on what was placed in my heart when I read this post. “I have a suspicion that my diet, somewhat poor of late, is playing a role in it…” Trust your self, trust that voice. Don’t wait for a doctor to tell you what you already know. Yes, get a second opinion to the one your inner spirit has already given you, but don’t wait.

    Hope that wasn’t overstepping any lines. Know it comes from a place of care 🙂 And I enjoyed your ramblings! Hopefully all my responses to your ramblings won’t be my own ramblings!! Melissa Xx

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    1. Nope, no overstepping as far as I am concerned! I enjoy your thoughts and value your opinion as much as I appreciate it. And I’m taking “our” advice, not waiting and jumping right into it.

      Thank you for letting me know you were touched somehow by my ramblings. It’s neat to hear/see how the Spirit works through the most unexpected ways, which I agree (again) is what worked here.

      Blessings, Greg

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